its hard to imagine that I'm still hear after 47 years. there certainly have been a lot of times that I may or may not have made it. Most of them were by accident, others for other reasons. ive been an art teacher for over 23 years. to say it all was easy would by lying. especially recently. recent occurences have kinda set me on a path that I never realized was or could happen. once again, most of this has been at my own hand. which i realize and am beginning to have very deep sinking depression because of it.